It's not always a competition!

But really it is! Nobody likes losing. it's a sign of poor work ethic and self loathing.
Except the rare occasion when I am losing...that's when you'll hear me screaming 'fuck off! it's not a god damn competition!' ...usually to my dad, who then tells me to watch my language, but stops commenting on how slow I'm running.
Everything I do is a competition. It's just the way I am. I time myself whenever I bike to clinical in the morning (28 mins there, 30 mins back today), whenever I see another runner ahead of me on the sidewalk I pump up the ipod and try my hardest to 'approach, pass, laugh, repeat'. I push myself hard. sometimes to the point where i finish a 4 hour run and lie on the living room floor for an hour shivering, too nauseous to get up and get a drink of water. I keep track of all my training online and I write down everything i eat and drink - not that that helps me much since i reallllly love my carbs and candy, but at least I think about not eating that extra handful of jujubes for a second before jammin them all into my mouth at once!
Today I lost a competition for a job with my friend. When I see her next I will congratulate her and pretend I didn't really want the job. and when i see you again, I will pretend I'm not upset about what happened.
Until then I will run. and bike. and swim. and forget about that job I didn't really want.

According to my online training log, this month I've been busy! Much much busier than I was in the winter months!! yay for sunny days and warm rain!

May Monthly Totals:
Running: 140Km
Cycling: 305Km
Swimming: 7.65 km

What have you done???? :P